OK I NEED TO VENT/RANT ABOUT THIS.
I HAVE THE WORST, MOST DISGUSTING, COUGH EVER.
Seriously.
I got about an hour of sleep last night. Which wouldn't be so bad if I hadn't been in bed from 1200am to 1200pm. Which is 12 hours. What was I doing the other 1/12 of the time? COUGHING.
Oh my god.
I can not take this anymore. Anytime I try to lay down I can't breathe, so I just start coughing. I've tried everything I can, including some creepy-ass online voodoo magic that probably wasn't the best idea.
And, I feel bad because I live in a suite with 3 other people, and I know for sure my roommate didn't sleep in here last night.
GAH, I HATE THIS.
Sunday, February 10, 2008
Saturday, February 9, 2008
In A Haze
So I've been walking around in a haze lately. I'm not really sure why. Maybe because I've got this terrible cough/cold/fever/fatigue combination? Or maybe because I'm letting my mind wander to things I really shouldn't be thinking about it?
All I know is that I've been really out of body lately. And I really hate that feeling. Like a lot.
So starting right now, the haze is over. I'm not thinking about the bad stuff anymore. I'm not letting this disease that I have take over. I'M THINKING POSITIVE. I'M THINKING AHEAD.
Mostly my problem is that I'm scared to death of the future. Now that I've got friends who are at that decisive point where they figure out what's next, I realize that I AM NOT READY FOR THAT. I may seem daring, or whatever, but I'm comfortable with what is safe, what is known.
NOT ANYMORE.
So, starting right now, I am going to embrace everything I've got for what it's worth, and start looking ahead. I'm not going to start finding a job right now or whatever, I'm just going to start thinking more about what's next for me. Not what's last, but what's next. If that makes any sense at all. I've got so many opportunities ahead of me. I'm going to embrace them, and then look towards the next thing.
I mean I'm only 20 years old. I have so much ahead of me. Meredyth told me today that I should run for president. I have to be 35 to even start entertaining that notion. That's 15 years from now, a long time. So even if I want to run for office or something ridiculous like that, I've got 15 years until then! I've got so much to do!
Now the thing is, I have to figure out what I'm going to do, and LOVE DOING IT.
I guess this post is more of a reassurance to myself, a way for me to voice what I've been thinking, and to tell myself to get over thinking the bad things, and start thinking about the good things!
Here's to the here and now, and the direct future, whatever that might be.
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Wow, what a tweaked out post. I blame it on the concoction of cold meds I'm on right now.
All I know is that I've been really out of body lately. And I really hate that feeling. Like a lot.
So starting right now, the haze is over. I'm not thinking about the bad stuff anymore. I'm not letting this disease that I have take over. I'M THINKING POSITIVE. I'M THINKING AHEAD.
Mostly my problem is that I'm scared to death of the future. Now that I've got friends who are at that decisive point where they figure out what's next, I realize that I AM NOT READY FOR THAT. I may seem daring, or whatever, but I'm comfortable with what is safe, what is known.
NOT ANYMORE.
So, starting right now, I am going to embrace everything I've got for what it's worth, and start looking ahead. I'm not going to start finding a job right now or whatever, I'm just going to start thinking more about what's next for me. Not what's last, but what's next. If that makes any sense at all. I've got so many opportunities ahead of me. I'm going to embrace them, and then look towards the next thing.
I mean I'm only 20 years old. I have so much ahead of me. Meredyth told me today that I should run for president. I have to be 35 to even start entertaining that notion. That's 15 years from now, a long time. So even if I want to run for office or something ridiculous like that, I've got 15 years until then! I've got so much to do!
Now the thing is, I have to figure out what I'm going to do, and LOVE DOING IT.
I guess this post is more of a reassurance to myself, a way for me to voice what I've been thinking, and to tell myself to get over thinking the bad things, and start thinking about the good things!
Here's to the here and now, and the direct future, whatever that might be.
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Wow, what a tweaked out post. I blame it on the concoction of cold meds I'm on right now.
Thursday, February 7, 2008
I'm Such a Smart Ass
So I went to the SCC to get my death cough looked at by a real doctor, instead of wikipedia. I went on this long rant about how antibiotics don't usually work on me, and then the doctor said to me:
"Well antibiotics are more for bacteria than viruses... Do you know the difference between bacteria and viruses?"
To which I responded:
"No, I've been sick so I haven't been able to go to Biology."
How I managed that in a deadpan, I will never know.
"Well antibiotics are more for bacteria than viruses... Do you know the difference between bacteria and viruses?"
To which I responded:
"No, I've been sick so I haven't been able to go to Biology."
How I managed that in a deadpan, I will never know.
Survivor, Applications, Home-MDing, Uncle's, etc...
So I really wanted to blog today, but I couldn't think of anything good to blog about. So then I was taking a shower and trying to think of something to blog about, and I came up with too many ideas. So this blog will hereby be known as this week's "random edition." I thought that was kinda cute.
So first thing. I am UNBELIEVABLY excited for Survivor to start again tomorrow. I kind of love that show. Like, a lot. And although I'm trying to be a cool roommate and let Meredyth use my TV for Lost, I will secretly be wanting to fight her and turn it to CBS. I've just got to keep telling myself that I can't get a very good CBS signal in my room and that it would be better to watch it online at 11 anyways. But seriously, Jonny Fairplay is back. And Yau-Man. And James. OH MY GOD.
Ok, next thing. I just got an e-mail from UNAUSA New York saying they will let us know in two weeks if we got picked. Ugh. Why did they have to do that? Why couldn't they just not say anything? Now I'm going to be willing away the next two weeks until the day when I find off if I got picked for New York. So annoying. Same thing happened with Study Abroad, although there's was a bit more legit. Apparently they added a winter quarter French Civ (in english, boo) program and fucked up the applications. But in the e-mail it put a time frame on the decisions... BY SPRING BREAK. That is like 5+ weeks away. Ack.
Also, I did a bit of home MDing on wikipedia because I have this terrible sore throat. I keep telling myself that it's from telling kids at the MUNUC dance not to go in the exit. Ok, screaming that at them. But I'm pretty sure I'm getting that token hell cough I get every year or two. The last time I legitimately had one was senior year and that turned into pneumonia, so I'm hoping that this isn't that bad. At least I'm not going to Montreal like this? I guess I'll have to hit up the doctor in the next day or two to fix things. But seriously, this sucks ASS.
What else? Well, I'm going to Uncle Chip's this weekend to watch some Badger Basketball... that should be a good time. I like going there because they feed me real food, and the bed in the guest room is amazing.
Oh, and I've got a few pictures to share with you:
This is what my room looked like when I got back from MUNUC. I'm pretty sure this was two days later. Note the fact that I had yet to unpack.
LOOK LOOK LOOK!!! I voted!! And guess what I voted for?? CHANGE!!!
CHECK OUT MY NEW UCVC JERSEY!!! ISN'T IT COOL??? I heart the flaming phoenix (which is our school's mascot... yeah, that's right... a phoenix).
Ok, I need to sleep before the cancer cough turns into consumption or something.
So first thing. I am UNBELIEVABLY excited for Survivor to start again tomorrow. I kind of love that show. Like, a lot. And although I'm trying to be a cool roommate and let Meredyth use my TV for Lost, I will secretly be wanting to fight her and turn it to CBS. I've just got to keep telling myself that I can't get a very good CBS signal in my room and that it would be better to watch it online at 11 anyways. But seriously, Jonny Fairplay is back. And Yau-Man. And James. OH MY GOD.
Ok, next thing. I just got an e-mail from UNAUSA New York saying they will let us know in two weeks if we got picked. Ugh. Why did they have to do that? Why couldn't they just not say anything? Now I'm going to be willing away the next two weeks until the day when I find off if I got picked for New York. So annoying. Same thing happened with Study Abroad, although there's was a bit more legit. Apparently they added a winter quarter French Civ (in english, boo) program and fucked up the applications. But in the e-mail it put a time frame on the decisions... BY SPRING BREAK. That is like 5+ weeks away. Ack.
Also, I did a bit of home MDing on wikipedia because I have this terrible sore throat. I keep telling myself that it's from telling kids at the MUNUC dance not to go in the exit. Ok, screaming that at them. But I'm pretty sure I'm getting that token hell cough I get every year or two. The last time I legitimately had one was senior year and that turned into pneumonia, so I'm hoping that this isn't that bad. At least I'm not going to Montreal like this? I guess I'll have to hit up the doctor in the next day or two to fix things. But seriously, this sucks ASS.
What else? Well, I'm going to Uncle Chip's this weekend to watch some Badger Basketball... that should be a good time. I like going there because they feed me real food, and the bed in the guest room is amazing.
Oh, and I've got a few pictures to share with you:
This is what my room looked like when I got back from MUNUC. I'm pretty sure this was two days later. Note the fact that I had yet to unpack.
LOOK LOOK LOOK!!! I voted!! And guess what I voted for?? CHANGE!!!
CHECK OUT MY NEW UCVC JERSEY!!! ISN'T IT COOL??? I heart the flaming phoenix (which is our school's mascot... yeah, that's right... a phoenix).
Ok, I need to sleep before the cancer cough turns into consumption or something.
Tuesday, February 5, 2008
Monday, February 4, 2008
Yes We Can
I sort of love this.
Although I've been decided on supporting Barack Obama for awhile, I've been hesitant to write about it, because I don't want this blog to be marred by politics and political jargon and the idea of picking a side.
But this man, this man could bring so much to our nation. He has a vision, he has ideas, and he inspires.
So while I step away from letting this blog deviate into something I don't really want it to be, I want you to look at this man and think about what our world, or nation could be.
Tomorrow is Super Tuesday. 22 states will be deciding which candidate should be given the nomination for the General Election in November. The democrats are loaded, not gonna lie. We've got the potential to really turn around everything that George Bush has done to our nation, our economy, and to the international system.
So who do we pick?
Well look at this man... I think he is a pretty good candidate don't you? A few years ago I thought our nation was lost, I thought it would be very difficult to fix. But with this man, we CAN fix it.
BARACK OBAMA FTW 08!
Sunday, February 3, 2008
MUNUC XX
So I got back to Hyde Park about an hour or two ago from the Palmer House Hilton downtown, where I've been stationed the last four days for MUNUC XX (Model United Nations of the University of Chicago 20).
First off, IT WAS SUCH A FUN WEEKEND!
This is mostly because I LOVE MODEL UN. I know it sounds really nerdy, but I seriously love doing Model UNs. I guess I like staffing them more than actually competing in them, but seriously, I find them so much fun. I told my roommate Mayon that if Model UN could be my job I would be the happiest person ever.
Now that it's over I'm a little bit (ok, a lot a bit) sad. Mayon and I were discussing this over coffee at Dunkin Donuts. Both of us chaired committees this year, which is a lot of work. We wrote extensive background guides on the topics (http://munuc.org/committees/UNHCR), memorized a book full of rules of procedure, coordinated the efforts of our assistant staff members as well as our moderators, and generally became an expert on everything relating to our committees. Now we are sad, because, after endless months of hard work, it is all of a sudden over.
LIKE SERIOUSLY, THERE IS A VOID IN MY BRAIN WHERE MUNUC SHOULD BE.
I began my work as a chair later than most, early June, but I still worked just as hard as they did. So to see eight months of hard work culminate in only four days is a bit of a shocker. This weekend FLEW by. Partly because I was awake for most of it, but also partly because four days compared to eight months is nothing.
I had a lot of fun though. My delegates were awesome, they understood the issues, and they proposed REAL, VIABLE solutions (for the most part). There wasn't a THAT kid in the room, which was refreshing, and more delegates were involved in debate than were involved in note passing at the back of the room!
My staff was great too. They made the committee session fun, and although I am a control freak and wanted to do everything, I felt comfortable giving them jobs to do. It is seriously hard for me to delegate work off to people, but with the staff I had, I didn't have such a hard time doing that!
SO WHAT'S NEXT?!?
Well, there are a few options on the table.
I know FOR SURE that I will be staffing ChoMUN this spring. Thats the college conference, and it is in 4.5 weeks. Yeah. We are going to squash what was essentially 8 months of preperation for MUNUC into 4.5 weeks for ChoMUN. Luckily ChoMUN is a lot of doing it on the fly. Thank GOD!
I've also applied to staff two conferences for UNAUSA. The first is a one day event in Chicago in early May. I should be picked for that no problem. The second is a long weekend conference in New York City in mid-May. I REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY wanted to get selected to staff that conference. Like A LOT. I think my chances are good. Not great. But good. I don't really know how competitive it is, but I know I've got two years of MUNUC on my application so that helps me a bit (ok, probably a lot, most other conferences SUCK).
For now I'm just going to have to deal with my MUNUC withdrawl. It's going to be a rough few days (mostly because I'm working off of 9 hours of sleep for the last 72 hours with the prospect of 12+ hours of homework looming ahead). I think I can handle it though. It's these first few days that are the roughest. DAMN.
First off, IT WAS SUCH A FUN WEEKEND!
This is mostly because I LOVE MODEL UN. I know it sounds really nerdy, but I seriously love doing Model UNs. I guess I like staffing them more than actually competing in them, but seriously, I find them so much fun. I told my roommate Mayon that if Model UN could be my job I would be the happiest person ever.
Now that it's over I'm a little bit (ok, a lot a bit) sad. Mayon and I were discussing this over coffee at Dunkin Donuts. Both of us chaired committees this year, which is a lot of work. We wrote extensive background guides on the topics (http://munuc.org/committees/UNHCR), memorized a book full of rules of procedure, coordinated the efforts of our assistant staff members as well as our moderators, and generally became an expert on everything relating to our committees. Now we are sad, because, after endless months of hard work, it is all of a sudden over.
LIKE SERIOUSLY, THERE IS A VOID IN MY BRAIN WHERE MUNUC SHOULD BE.
I began my work as a chair later than most, early June, but I still worked just as hard as they did. So to see eight months of hard work culminate in only four days is a bit of a shocker. This weekend FLEW by. Partly because I was awake for most of it, but also partly because four days compared to eight months is nothing.
I had a lot of fun though. My delegates were awesome, they understood the issues, and they proposed REAL, VIABLE solutions (for the most part). There wasn't a THAT kid in the room, which was refreshing, and more delegates were involved in debate than were involved in note passing at the back of the room!
My staff was great too. They made the committee session fun, and although I am a control freak and wanted to do everything, I felt comfortable giving them jobs to do. It is seriously hard for me to delegate work off to people, but with the staff I had, I didn't have such a hard time doing that!
SO WHAT'S NEXT?!?
Well, there are a few options on the table.
I know FOR SURE that I will be staffing ChoMUN this spring. Thats the college conference, and it is in 4.5 weeks. Yeah. We are going to squash what was essentially 8 months of preperation for MUNUC into 4.5 weeks for ChoMUN. Luckily ChoMUN is a lot of doing it on the fly. Thank GOD!
I've also applied to staff two conferences for UNAUSA. The first is a one day event in Chicago in early May. I should be picked for that no problem. The second is a long weekend conference in New York City in mid-May. I REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY wanted to get selected to staff that conference. Like A LOT. I think my chances are good. Not great. But good. I don't really know how competitive it is, but I know I've got two years of MUNUC on my application so that helps me a bit (ok, probably a lot, most other conferences SUCK).
For now I'm just going to have to deal with my MUNUC withdrawl. It's going to be a rough few days (mostly because I'm working off of 9 hours of sleep for the last 72 hours with the prospect of 12+ hours of homework looming ahead). I think I can handle it though. It's these first few days that are the roughest. DAMN.
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